| I've been awake since before the sun rose, for no reason other that my body decided that it was time to be. I have yet to figure out why, but whenever I wake up early like this I have this strange feeling of productive aloofness, a sort of Christopher McCandles/Alexander Supertramp mindset. It's a time when I really only want to be completely and utterly alone, as if, when I see someone, it voids who I am, it negates everything that makes me who I am and dissolves every chance I have of becoming who I will be. Methinks this is why I sleep as late as possible - to escape these feelings and salvage my social being, my "humanity" if you will. And yet, I wholly love this feeling, I can embrace it, take it completely into my heart and flourish on it. It makes me less afraid of the things that will be, of what will happen to me. It makes me feel... a little bit more alive.
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| I'm in college now, 4 hours away from anything familiar. So weird to not know anyone.
And now for something completely different:
I need to see Vision Quest; I don't know how I made it through 12 years of wrestling without seeing it.
And... Penn and Teller's Showtime specials are hilariously insightful
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| I'm going to colorado in 3 days.
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| Once again whatever I do is completely wrong.
I need to leave Sterling.
I need everything to be over with.
19 days
Alea iacta est.
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